Give me Love and Money, I have the rest already

Sometimes you’d wish that you were a little bit more involved…….especially when you know that you could have been.

I quote Arnold Daly. "Golf is like a love affair; if you don’t take it seriously, it’s no fun. If you do take it seriously, it breaks your heart."

Sometimes you’d stop yourself from falling deeply in love……especially when you suspect that your heart’s gonna break. When sense of security is thin and there are lots of dubious characters, you try not to take it seriously…..When popularity with the opposite sex becomes surprisingly convenient and coincidental…..your self defense nerves tingle.

"Protect yourself at all times" That’s what the referee always says in the ring right at the beginning before the fighters touch gloves. So you do exactly what you’re told to do. You adopt the classic "peekaboo" and hide your chin behind your gloves. Your coach shouts from the corner "That’s right! Keep your hands up!" But as long as you keep your hands up near your face, you’re never going to let your fists fly and your elbows are never going to snap. The only way to sting, is to hang your hands loosely around your chest…..and risk getting hit on your chin.

And all the roads we have to walk are winding

And all the lights that lead the way are blinding

There are many things that I

would like to say to you

But I don’t know how

– Oasis

When you don’t know, you don’t think. Be it consciously or un-consciously, you simply don’t think when you don’t know (unless you’re Einstein). And when you don’t think, you don’t feel.

Hence the title of thy entry "Ignorance is bliss".

And bliss…………………bliss is self-defined.

If you ask me to define bliss, I would ask you to see thy title of thy blog.

It’s late at night and I guess most of the world is sleeping. No it’s not coffee that has kept me from falling asleep tonight. It’s a certain conversation that’s left me wide awake.

For as long as I can remember, I have been an advocator of transparency and speaking your mind. And never has it been a tripping stone until tonight. I am not a result-oriented person, mainly because I have always believed in the journey more than the destination. I still can recall sitting in the interview room, wearing my uncomfortable shirt and tie, not wearing any of my ear studs. And Stanley Yong asked "So what makes you think that you can manage and excel in the marine industry, when you’re coming from a mechanical discipline?" My answer: "It’s true that my degree is a mechanical engineering qualification, but I think that should be secondary with respect to education. What is more important, is the skills and abilities that I have picked up in this 4 years I spent acquiring the qualification."

When she dwells too much on the future and the destination, it really brings me down. Someday, we may need to rest our heads on the same pillow and talk about it until dawn. But don’t you think it’s still too early? I refuse to admit that I am procrastinating because if I really am, then there’s no need for romancing and falling in love, then there’s no need for Ewan Mcgregor to sing "I hope you don’t mind, I hope you don’t mind, that I put down in words, how wonderful life is, now you’re in the world". People should just walk around with a clipboard and tick against their checklist, and when everything is checked, that’s the person they’re going to marry.

Even if 2 people from 2 totally different cultures and beliefs has to eventually return to where they belong, I’m sure they would be grateful for the journey they have shared.

As of now, I just need a tiny wand so that I can imitate Harry Potter. I can imagine myself….concentrating all my chakra…..conjuring all my innermost postitive feelings…."Expecto Patronum!" I don’t need to cast a very good one, just a small silvery mist to envelope myself, making me immune to negative feelings like despair….