Expecto Patronum
It’s late at night and I guess most of the world is sleeping. No it’s not coffee that has kept me from falling asleep tonight. It’s a certain conversation that’s left me wide awake.
For as long as I can remember, I have been an advocator of transparency and speaking your mind. And never has it been a tripping stone until tonight. I am not a result-oriented person, mainly because I have always believed in the journey more than the destination. I still can recall sitting in the interview room, wearing my uncomfortable shirt and tie, not wearing any of my ear studs. And Stanley Yong asked "So what makes you think that you can manage and excel in the marine industry, when you’re coming from a mechanical discipline?" My answer: "It’s true that my degree is a mechanical engineering qualification, but I think that should be secondary with respect to education. What is more important, is the skills and abilities that I have picked up in this 4 years I spent acquiring the qualification."
When she dwells too much on the future and the destination, it really brings me down. Someday, we may need to rest our heads on the same pillow and talk about it until dawn. But don’t you think it’s still too early? I refuse to admit that I am procrastinating because if I really am, then there’s no need for romancing and falling in love, then there’s no need for Ewan Mcgregor to sing "I hope you don’t mind, I hope you don’t mind, that I put down in words, how wonderful life is, now you’re in the world". People should just walk around with a clipboard and tick against their checklist, and when everything is checked, that’s the person they’re going to marry.
Even if 2 people from 2 totally different cultures and beliefs has to eventually return to where they belong, I’m sure they would be grateful for the journey they have shared.
As of now, I just need a tiny wand so that I can imitate Harry Potter. I can imagine myself….concentrating all my chakra…..conjuring all my innermost postitive feelings…."Expecto Patronum!" I don’t need to cast a very good one, just a small silvery mist to envelope myself, making me immune to negative feelings like despair….
